Wide Open

Somewhere between

Home and not home

Feeing safe and not safe

Feeling loved and not loved

I go lay on the autumn ground

Breathing in deep the smell of wet leaves and dirt

I let myself

Sink deep

down into the wet grass

I feel the vibrations of the earth

the feeling starts at the very center of my body and

grows

it grows just like the wild forest

just like the

ocean

spanning further then the eye can see

out past the sun and spiraling off the moon

it radiates heat and light

and love

and shows me

me

I feel myself open

Open to the earth

Opening like the earth would open to her lover

I am wide open

Surrounded by grass and trees and sky

I am wide open

I can feel the light pouring from my soul and nurturing the

Green grass just like the sun

I am the sun

I am the moon

I am everything

I am wide open

For the first time

I let myself feel my openness

And it carries me to the sky

Like a pinball I bounce back and forth off the stars

And I soar like a dove

No like a seagull

I am flying over the ocean

With no land in sight

There is nothing but existing

Nothing

no fear

no chaos

Nothing but beauty, light, and love

I am wide open