His arms wrapped tight around me
My head on his chest
While feeling the heat of his body pressed onto mine
I sink down into the comfort
Of that warm safe feeling
A feeling of love a protection
Warmness
And safety
And as I lay there I think about
How there is really no safety in this
There is no safety at all
There are no warm feelings
No secret comfort
Nothing
There is nothing to give me
There is nothing to take
What is the point to all this
All this
Nothing
amber orange
sparkling like diamonds
covered in gold
spiraling down, down
grazing the grass
then shooting up
up to the heavens
past the sun
and through the milky way
collecting stars
for her crown
Open your heart
To me
Maybe I'll just pry it loose with a
Crow bar
Maybe I'll just
Bite your tongue off
When you tell me you love me
Maybe I'll just scream in your ear when you are asleep
I don't know
I just feel like being mean
I am really not getting what I want
So I am just going to
Hurt your feeling
Push you in a corner
And see your reaction
See how much you can take
I'm going to make this fun for me
Exciting
I'm going to rearrange your visions
And tell you nothing has changed
Whatever you do
DON'T
take it personally
I'm just letting my little ornery red devil come
out to play
I miss the way it use to feel
when everything wasn't so real
Red Buddha light blinking
My back arching
Hair in shambles
Hands lost in the desert of his skin
When I was desired
Because, I was the unknown
But now
it seems
I'm the comfortable grass under the tree of life
I miss the way we use to dance
Dancing to no music
just the pulsing vibration
of our
hearts
and
Red Buddha light blinking
Your hand on my throat
Got me whispering your name
You mouth up to my ear
I got you humming
Your sweet sound
But your breath
Has changed
I've been waiting for days
For it to be sweet
like your sound in my ear
I think there is some kind of Cosmic Force thing going on here
Or maybe even two or three
Fate, Destiny, Eternity,
Dark, Light,
Red, Yellow, Blue,
Who knows?
Could be endless and endless forms of Cosmic Forces
like the Eternity symbol forever ending where it began
using Love as is its disguise
I have stayed on this path of Love
because
My Cosmic Lover, you have shown me
the true joy of love
you have shown me
the ease of trust
but I think that is just the bubbling, richly colored surface
glowing with the brilliant, sometimes undetected
Colors of the galaxy
Gods try to hold me while I sleep
But, it's in your arms
I feel cool and serine
When we touch
and we are clear of blockages, with the awareness of
all five senses blazing
I am in free fall glorious limbo
no need for gravity
we are a star
in the black sky
lighting the way for the benefit of all
I want to shed all these shards of dirty glass
that cloud mother earths beauty that shines through me
and it's because of our solar connected,
Eternal tree roots of Cosmic Love
I know this
Thank you
I love you!
Goddess Divine
Ultimate female warrior
I am you
There is no separation
10 million different names for you
It doesn't matter
I am you
We are the same
I take pride and delight in knowing
That I am you
You are me
I take great care in letting you know I love you
I love myself
Ultimately
We are one
Goddess with long flowing hair
And long strong arms
I see you inside of me
You are the amber color that plays in my eyes
You are the white tone of my skin
You are the wave of my hair
You are the pink of my lips
Thank you so much in all your 10 million names
Thank you
I love you
Lover Sun
Come caress my skin with your golden fingers
Warm my cold body with your embrace
You haven't held me in days
The moon
he is slowly circling me
He is hovering
Getting bigger and closer
Soon he will be asking me to dance with him in the dark shadows
But lover Sun
Today
It is you I want
It is you I long for
Tell the moon to keep spinning
For I want you
Not him
Let the moon orbit
Come kiss me
Fire
Like the soul of the sun
To me sun is a man
With strong arms and long fingers
Licking my skin with his tongue
Pushing his fire that lives in me already
Deep deep down into my lower chakra
Till I'm buzzing with the warm
No
Hot
Vibrations of his power
He has a power over me
Like no other
Pushing me and pushing till I'm in a corner
Like a lady tiger
Ready to claw at the flesh of my desire
Looking back and forth
Eyes slowly following
Hunting my prey
Until I find just the right one
And slowly start to circle him till
He gives in and sees my tiger eyed beauty
My strong shoulders
And yes
As a man
He will want to conquer me
Dominate me
Control me
Own me
But there will always be this little purr
Buried deep down within this hungry hungry
Tiger
And it is fueled by that sun
Burning and nudging
Demanding satisfaction
Demanding
Excitement
Demanding
Passion
Demanding
Spontaneity
And if she is lacking it
She will curl up in a corner
licking her lips
I'm getting this itch to turn and run
Play with lady bugs in the school yard
And think of nothing but the warm sun on my face
And how the bugs feel to my fingers
I feel my skin crawling
I feel it!
It's moving like light beams all through by body
It's shining out of my eyes
I'm putting on my running shoes
And lacing up the strings
Standing there
Constantly devoted
Eyes bright and dreamy
Devouring whatever your lover throws at you
Whatever he says the
Sacred tells him he should do
Even if that is to be cast out
Shown the door
Left for broke
Not a word
Of protest
passes out of your lips
You go
You run
Cause your lover says
Run
This is your virtue
This is your calling
This is your path
You are to be the
Devote of your husband
In a sacred union
Written by the stars
but you know
You will stay true to your path
Like no man can do
You can stand
And plant your feet
Just like a tree mother Sita
Because you know
You know
That you are right
Always doing what is your path
Your intuition
You know
And for this
You will live
In the belly of the earth
Braiding the tree roots
Nurturing the sky
Healing all
By your integrity
You know dear Sita
And through your example
I know
Thank you
I love you
The Sacred fire
burns and
sears
and cleans
my mind, my soul, and my body
I got a message from Jesus
and it was sent to me
through a sacred solstice fire
he said
Girl everything
builds and everything crumbles
it's all in the way you hold on to it,
it's all in the way you let it form
let your thoughts be like water
no let it be like fire, sweet girl
to hot to grasp
let those images and ideas
burn. let them glow to an amber orange
and they will allow you to be free
moving and expanding till they burn away
